Freaking Heart

The sun sets
The moon showing its light
Even that light shines brightly
It still so dark and hollow


That smile, that warm smile
Gone and vanished
It turns into cry and anger
Is it the future?

No, I don't want it
Let me run away from this
Don't let me know it deeper
My heart shouted, freaking my fear

My body's shaking, I don't know the reason
Just this time, I hope there will be someone hugging me
I hear that voice softly
I turned around hopping there's someone
In fact there's only dusts
Why? Should I shouting for many times?
I'm afraid (afraid) don't you realize?
in this coldness I want you to be here
Holding my hand, saying "it's okay"
Is it too much?

Like between live and death
I walked in confusion
In that corner, I try to be stronger
But I know, it isn't enough

Why does everyone seems far away?
Apart from me, with long distance
I couldn't see you, actually I wanna
Beside you, make me stronger

My body's shaking, sounds of fear heared
I just want you to understand my heart, listen to it
Here, I'm just too afraid
Hug me, hold me so I can stay
Let me feel the warmness
I'm angry, my heart burned
Why does everyone go away from me?
It seems I that never exist (exist) no....
Look at me, can't you feel and see me?
Don't you know that I fell for you?
I need you now

Why, my tears keep flowing even when I smile
Why, my heart keep hurts even when I happy
What is this feel? What should I do?
Did I miss anything else inside of me?
So then, I know
I missed my most important thing
You....

My body is numbing, now I can't move
Open my heart, please keep smiling whatever happens
Erase the sadness even if it's hard
Even if I didn't find the light
I'll search it, 'till my last breath
I believe, someday you'll back
Make me stronger please, just with beside me
Until that time, I'll wait (wait) for you
Even if that will take a whole life
But, If you're not come
it's alright as long as you're
happy

Even if I must feel this fear alone